warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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how do you maintain a healthy lifestyle filled with yoga and meditation and organic kale salads and detoxifying juices whilst drinking every weekend? gah. puked all the way home yesterday. tried to push Tim away as he attempted to help me puke at each corner, which i vaguely remember. currently nursing the worst hangover of my life. spent the day watching emotional spoken word poems and pretending i was heartbroken. sometimes that's fun.

sometimes i'm afraid its going to happen sooner than later. as much as i enjoy drinking and partying, which is what my relationship with Tim has basically been the last week, we just don't have that common interest that's going to bind us together in the long run. would he ever be interested in seeing a long dark play with me? would he ever be interested in spending a month in thailand or vietnam, riding bikes and jumping off cliffs? will we ever have one of those long soul opening gut wrenching conversations about life and its meaning and its unfairness. i don't know
it doesn't seem like it
prepping my heart for a pending heartbreak doesn't seem all that crazy now.

8:47 p.m. - 2014-02-09

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