warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i guess i didn't learn my lesson. whoops.

i had a date with julian last night. we watched toy story 3, it was absolutely heart wrenching and marvelous. i cried, of course.
julian's not a bad guy at all. he's the kind of guy who finds being a jerk really funny, but in a real nice way. we get along pretty well. i ended up getting high with his friends in a graveyard, which was definitely the highlight of the night. his friends are these massive physics nerds..one hopes to build a synthetic brain before he dies. they're all from a small-ish town, and they're all incredibly funny and weird with each other. just like you'd imagine boys from small towns to be.

i forgot about the book and i ended up making out with him and sleeping in his bed the entire night. i felt awful because i couldn't stop thinking about stephen. can you believe it?

i'm not completely over it yet.
i couldn't tell if i wasn't completely over stephen himself, or the pain he caused.

julian asked me what was wrong the next morning. its nice that he could tell. he even held my hand as we were walking to the bus stop, and i told him, rather generally that i've been having pretty bad experiences with guys i go too fast with..

he said he wasn't like that.

i don't know about that yet though.

i don't know.

11:15 a.m. - 2010-07-18

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