warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - today i spoke to joker, the homeless man with a rat named taco, with a sense of humor and a sense of anger that is just so exciting and interesting i just..had to mention him. actually, he got incredibly into talking about various facebook applications...farmville in particular and i just had to laugh and laugh at the sheer...funnyness of it all. i mean, wow. what can you say really. talked a little bit to a girl named tera. she's from a small town all the way on the other side of the province and she has this cute small town kind of accent that makes me want to talk to her all day and be her best friend. she talks about how she never had it in her mind to make tons of money, that she would be happy living in a small community, no money, making vegetables for neighbors and living off of love and people and conversation. she talked about her boyfriend, about how they one day would totally live on a boat as pirates and do pirate things and have pirate sex. and i kept saying that i totally agreed with her, that i never, ever , ever had a goal of making lots of money and living in a large house. but god. i just realized. its because all my life i've been handed all these things and more. on a silver platter nonetheless. i have always had it easy. i have always lived comfortably. and yet i convince myself that i can truly live humbly for the rest of my life, that i can truly live off just enough to survive, that surely that would be enough. i still do believe that though. i don't need the big tvs and the brand name clothes like my brothers do . i can simply have just enough. but i'm being such a hypocrite, because i know, once i enter that mall, i enter that store, i want what's there, i want what they're all having. and i think i just need to get out of that environment for a bit. but its difficult when you live with a family such as mine... 11:08 p.m. - 2010-01-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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