warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - that entry from last night actually wasn't finished, at all. my brother came in and i had to exit the screen straight away because i was on his computer, and i just couldn't risk having him see this darn thing.... i don't think i can actually continue it any longer. no longer in that moment, i guess. i guess what i wanted to write about was how i don't ever want to live a life of selfishness, a life filled with conceited goals and self-centered ambition. or something. was supposed to go shopping though today (haha?) because my brother got me and my younger brother a 100 dollar certificate to this consignment store, and i was really excited, and we all met up but then for some dumbass reason, rob forgot to check if the place was even open by this time. and alas, it wasn't. anyway, we all went to this amazing vegetarian restaurant instead. it was a really cool place because it was covered in quotes about freedom and justice and it kind of made the whole dining experience pretty memorable. i also made my brother give his leftovers to a homeless man. school was awesome too, we had a 3 hour break because our professors are incredibly inconsiderate, but i got to catch up with the girls i don't see too often, and it was truly a long time since i've laughed that much. i might be seeing radio boy tomorrow. but maybe even corey. depending on...everything. david, i think, is seeing sam still (his ex) and if i were to have discovered this at a time where i wasn't so fuckin satisfied with who i was and who i want to be, i would have probably spent this entire entry moaning and crying and wah wah wahing about him and his inability to love and want me. but i'm over it, for the most part. if he really wanted me, he would have asked for me. no longer will i let a few good kisses and a few nice words take that kind of hold on me. i am so, so much better than that.
10:35 p.m. - 2010-01-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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