warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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3 patients on my ward died this week.
somehow, this is drawing me closer and closer to a career in palliative care. i don't know. my patient has pancreatic cancer and her optimism and strength touches and enlightens me more than anything i've ever known. i just don't know where this strength comes from. she says its God, and a woman who has gone through this much abuse and pain..its incredible. and i, i've rarely gone through anything remotely close to what she's gone through and yet my faith is just about..nothing. i mean, what does that say? I guess, God wants to put us through all these horrible things because he's selfish,because he wants us to have nothing else but Him.

i'm not saying that's a bad thing or anything. its kind of..human.

4:37 p.m. - 2010-01-13

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