warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i just walked home barefoot and i'm effin exhausted as all hell.
robert called me while he was at a concert. i asked why. he said it was because i left my necklace at his place and he was wondering if i would like to come over to pick it up.
i can't help but take that as an excuse to see me, but in a way that seems casual and not.. i don't know, desperate.
the ball's in my court still. i feel it. i said tonight's not gonna work, maybe some other time. "okay" he says, "call me whenever, any time"

some guy at the gay bar today, who i danced with, gave me his card so that i might call him. i slyly rejected him and he said it was all okay and he wasn't hurt. i gave him a kiss on the cheek and he gave me his card anyway. he was all, "you're so beautiful, i could spot you from miles away"
i thought that was cute.
also, his name is mustafa.

and then there's steven, who i met last night. he's very much into me. so much so that he called me the next day just to ask how i was and if i'd like to hang out with him for a fancy dinner at some point.

this is nice. this attention.
confusing to my insecure heart.
but nice nonetheless.

i'm going to really try this thing out with robert though. i think he might be...something more.

though, i can't be certain.
especially now when i'm tired and slightly drunk and slightly fucked in the head with nothing but lady gaga songs and gay naked men in showers.
what a fucking night.

2:14 a.m. - 2010-06-04

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