warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i do tend to translate my "like" for someone into something bigger than it really is, mainly because i am bored/lonely/confused/dumb. i'm not sure.

as always, kajra and i analyzed the fuck out of our situations and she thinks its best that i tell him up front that i am not here for something casual.

but maybe i am.

i'm confused with myself and what i want. like always.

of course, what it really comes down to is that need to be wanted in a desperate and can't live without you kind of way, and because robert(david, mike, tavish, etc) don't show this kind of affection consistently, it just..sorta hurts. even if, the truth is, i don't really want a real relationship with any of these guys.

i deserve the best. i deserve everything. not just something. not just that lonely or horny text every two weeks. not just sex. i deserve everything i want out of men and out of people and out of life. stop settling for this.

i am wonderful.

i need to start telling myself this every day.

until i believe it.

5:20 p.m. - 2010-06-03

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