warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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just...say you'll stay. any of you.

yeah. it does make me laugh that all the popular kids are still dating each other. like honestly, all of them.
like they can't get out of each other's worlds..or their own world's. the small minuscule meaningless world of high school.

it also makes me laugh that for every guy that genuinely likes me, there are at least 12 that pretend they do.

this makes me sad.

but i guess, at least i'm worth pretending to like. you know. even if its only to get into my pants.

i'll just have to weed through all of them until i find that 1 that does actually genuinely perfectly without a doubtly likes me.

for me.

since daniel, there has been

ds
tv
db
ct
ae
bs
kf
tf
rp
mc

approximately. that's 1 year's worth of different men that have pretended to like me for some reason or another. some for sex. some for company. some for attempting to fulfill the empty parts of themselves that the girls who they truly love have left them. i've had sex with only one man since daniel and he isn't even on the list. he didn't even bother pretending i just went for it. but let's not go there.
despite, not giving my body completely, i have given some of myself to all of them, stupidly, irrationally and with little drops of hope for something more.

so. i guess that means...2 more boys to go.

and that will be it.

7:03 p.m. - 2010-05-19

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