warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it doesn't really matter because..well...you're beautiful it doesn't actually matter what happened last night because it was the same old, the same old excitement and irrational hope for something that will never be anything more than a one night romance. but anyway. we'll see. david also texted me last night, after a month of...not something along the lines of "how's life treating you my friend?" like we were ever friends. like my life ever had any bearing on his. besides that, i realized that lately all i've been talking about are these issues and these ideas and concepts and things with everyone. i was talking today about oprah and her target population group and how that doesn't make much sense given her background and whatever. i was thinking about does religion actually cause wars? or do people? just people. and i was thinking about a lot of things. and my brain hurts. but its making me feel fuller. ryan also called me yesterday and finally confronted me about my flakiness. how i always say yes to certain events and say no at the last minute, leaving him sad and frustrated. and i knew, all this time, that i was doing this...but shit. i didn't realize how badly this was hurting him. and well, probably everyone i do this to. the worst thing is, he knows i go out with kajra practically every weekend, and for me to not even go to his birthday..horrible. i know. ( i was sick though, the hives!)
or something. 2:52 p.m. - 2010-05-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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