warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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yeah, i realize this is, like, the 5234 entry of today but i really did nothing today, to be honest. the last two days were tiring. but today just felt useless.
i think i'm going to clean my room and then head into bed. i'm exhausted.

i took a nice long walk with my dad and now my legs are all red and rashy from i guess, the combination of the friction and the cold air. i looked for christmas lights but only one house had anything worth mentioning. they had lighted candy canes on the driveway. and then we walked some more, and one house only had a layer of lights in the color of light bulbs so it ended up looking like a show home rather than a home with people. multicolored lights are the only way to go. our house looks nice though. we have this star shaped light that changes color in the dark and i am putting it by my window because it kinda makes me feel a lot more comfortable about things.

i was over reacting obviously. i mean, she's right. tommy and david are both going to be there. but i wouldn't have done anything, i wouldn't have pointed out the fact that im in love with both of them and that i would probably do just about anything for a chance to sleep in their arms again. really though, i wouldn't have said anything.

but its probably best i stay in bed.

also, mike, i think, wants to see me. its a little exciting but he also is a friend of jeremy's and i don't want to keep messing around with one group of friends.i'm also a lot more wittier online than i am in real life.
ha! so, i guess i would rather keep this mysterious image of myself than ruin it by actually seeing him again.

so, i guess i should go to bed.

this should be it for today!
thanks for everything. it really does mean a lot when you're this lonely.

10:26 p.m. - 2009-12-12

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