warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - last night we had asian curry and talked about genocide and abortion and then sex, masturbation, and sex, and we practiced putting a condom on a wisk, because we never learned how to because we went to a catholic high school, and they teach you nothing that you need to know there...and..it was interesting. vick told me i was naive, that i need to stop talking like a horny asshole in front of people because people will get the wrong idea. but i wish i cared. we're not all brought up in the same mind frame, with the same feelings, and the same perceptions....and maybe, i should be more careful with my words and my actions, but when you're drunk. nothing matters. nothing matters but the desperate desperation of needing, wanting to be touched, and maybe loved. she has a boyfriend, who is wonderful and funny and perfect, and i don't. and i know i sound like a bitch, but hey, i'm not the one with the perfect boyfriend. i'm not the one feeling all stable, my emotions are just all over the place, and all i feel is that emptiness that comes when the night is young and the moon is full, but your heart isn't and you just want someone to tell you you're amazing, and you're worth it, and that even though you're not perfect, you are everything that is good in my world. anyway, last night was nice. we sat around the table with the lights off and the candles on, and tried a shot of her cough syrup because it had codeine and apparently that shit fucks you up. haha. i felt nothing though. 10:49 a.m. - 2009-11-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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