warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I did not think it was possible to meet someone who could make me laugh, think, and feel things so deeply. I don’t even think the possibility was even contemplated before because this is the first time I’ve felt it. It’s exactly how they describe- feeling like you’ve meet your “person”. I worry sometimes that this might be moving towards a dependency, an addiction. I want nothing more than for this to feel healthy. There are certainly lessons to be learned here, I know . If anything I’m trying to practice non attachment. You can’t depend your happiness on one single person. You can’t neglect the people who have been in your life before him. You can’t neglect yourself. I’ll be gone for 6 weeks- travelling to the arctic to practice mental health nursing in a completely different environment. None of it has exactly hit me yet- although I tell just about everybody that I am stoked for the experience. Everyone’s super proud of me but I’ve not even done it yet. The usual feelings of inadequacy and incompetence are returning, but at this point I have no choice but to go for it. Update soon 12:38 p.m. - 2019-07-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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