warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - We drove 3 hours down a logging road to get to this intimate little hot spring in Lillooet. We were with 6 other people but we felt like it was just the two of us, at least we pretended to be. There is so much uncertainty, not because I doubt my love for him, but because I doubt anything in this world is certain. Is he passing through or does he plan to stay for awhile? Am I a stop along the way or the final destination? Am I a detour to the one he wants? I hate the desperation I feel sometimes, the need for him to validate and love me all the time- as if I don’t have enough of it on my own. It sickens me. 9:21 p.m. - 2019-06-04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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