warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - guilt and shame seem to be some if not my favourite emotions. i like to swim and revel in it almost daringly. it doesn't matter what time of day or where i am. i sat by the Okanogan lake sipping on wine and thinking of old shames and trying so hard to keep with my breath and with the moment, but my mind wandered into reasons why i simply just wasn't good enough to be here with all this beauty. i know how bad of a habit this is. why do i feel the need to drudge up old guilts. is it self protection? self preservation? is it in my biology? have i just made this a habit and simply have to overcome this with new ones and with practice? all i want is to live in peace. with my mind. with my decisions. 10:33 a.m. - 2015-07-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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