warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - the dumb thoughts rise up like small ripples, not like the big tidal waves that they used to be. i still ruminate over silly things like did i sound stupid during rounds today? did i accidentally leak some of my period blood on mike's bedsheets today even though its unlikely? does nikki hate me because i spilled sandwiches on her floor? one problem after another, one insecurity after another�. there will always be something to worry about. i guess all you can do is just recognize the impermanence of it all, watch it float through your life and just live it. life isn't easy, but we can keep it simple. the other day i led a meditation group for my patients. it was wonderful. i have come to realize that even though I'm a psych nurse and much of my focus is on medication administration and education, i find that its use is actually quite limited. i see so many patients come in and out of the hospital because they have not trained their minds to think and see life differently. so many studies have shown that the effects of meditation and mindfulness have been just as and even more effective than medications in helping treat chronic pain, depression, anxiety�etc. its about changing our minds�our thoughts..and in so doing our emotions..which will then allow our bodies to follow suit. anyway its something i really want to pursue and learn more about. as i said, there's the mindfulness course i'm planning to take in january. then there's the shambhala mediation course in october. and possibly the mediation and yoga retreat i signed up for in Bali for November! just two years ago i would have never seen myself pursuing spirituality and holistic health as a significant part of my life. and yet here i am. a book here and a chance meeting there and an open mind has led me to this path..and i'm gonna take it.
12:24 p.m. - 2014-09-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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