warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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when you're the only one awake in a room of 22 people and one of the patients' radio is playing some song about a revolution, you'll feel like you're the only person left in this world.
it was a pretty cool feeling. i find quiet night shifts to be the most soul opening for some reason.

i get that acceptance is quite literally the most difficult feeling to cultivate. how rarely do we accept the circumstances we're in. how rarely do we enjoy sailing the rough seas, when really all we have to do is balance and adjust our boat in minor ways, be with the waves so that we can sail a little smoother.
i ruminate hard. i worry that my patient is undergoing some hyperglycaemic emergency that no one has noticed even though he hasn't exhibited any symptoms. that's the kind of anxiety i have. the unfounded kind.

anyway, yesterday was beautiful. my parents' had their 25th anniversary at some pretty brunch restaurant at the shangri-la. my brothers and i bought them bikes and they could barely believe it, it was adorable. i might be the luckiest girl in the world to have the kind of family i do. then my brother, his girlfriend and I went for a bike ride along the sea wall. ran into james with his cute dog he was taking care of. things are more comfortable with him and that makes me pretty happy.
at the end of the night we went to the night market and i ate too much food and that was that.

in other news, andrew hasn't texted. i know its because of my emotional breakdown amongst other things, but who knows. the single life is not so bad.

7:13 p.m. - 2014-07-28

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