warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i'm trying to be more spiritually enlightened you know, like dis-attaching myself from external events, not letting them be a factor in my own happiness, because you know, happiness comes from "within" and yet here i am. still, anxious about the usual things. still upset when i find out no one can take my shift and i really, absolutely need it off. i know all of these are first up to the top world problems. i spent a month in nepal, meditating every day, doing yoga on a rooftop, even found my guru, even felt seconds of bliss and absolute contentment.
i know this is a journey. i know that i can't expect myself to one day wake up and feel that absolute in the moment centered enlightenment. that its a practice and a work in progress. but i am only human, and these anxieties are still there. i notice them more, but they are still there. these petty jealousies and these little anxieties.
i know that i simply need to to trust that things, and they always do, will work out somehow in the end
but still before that end comes
gotta keep on this struggle

10:26 a.m. - 2013-10-31

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