warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - right, so, who knows. reading my diary in that very self-indulgent fashion made me realize that my entire life has pretty much been the same old chapter each year. all it does is make me LOL. i like to think i'm smarter maybe even more spiritual or self-aware but fuck who knows i have better friends though. i've even had better "relationships" i'm not even masturbating much..which is more or less a fuckin shame. i should maybe get on that. otherwise, i've really only added drugs to my story and perhaps even love, but still. i'm still the same. i still navigate through my relationships and life events in the same manner, with the same thoughts. but still, i feel like i'm exactly where i should be. all the things i've dreamed of have come true somehow, without me even realizing. i haven't stopped to think that when i was 11 years old i often dreamed of coming home to my own apartment after a job that had me helping and listening to people. i never thought i would have a group of friends like i do now. i remember so desperately wanting to belong. being kicked out of dance groups because i was being too loud or too much or too slow. and now here i am with a set of friends who want me. often. i often dreamed of boys, all the different kinds of boys and what kind of lessons they would each teach me.and here i am with an array of experience from very different kinds of guys, and its pretty incredible how that happened. all my dreams have come true. not at all in the ways i expected, but in all the ways that it should 12:00 a.m. - 2013-08-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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