warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I looked at his facebook and found his profile photo changed to one with her. cried almost immediately, thought i was over all this bullshit, all this mourning. i went to jazz class this morning, felt fabulous, complete, fulfilled, happy. why isn't the grieving process more defined, why doesn't it end at an exact moment? i know in my deepest of hearts that i am changing, that all this in 2-3 years wil be nothing but a sweet memory. someone showed up in my life and loved me as much as he could, just not enough. and that has nothing to do with my self worth or how much goodness is coming my way. we weren't meant to be. if he was, he'd be right here beside me, right now. but he's not. and that reality does not make me any less of an amazing person. i definitely feel like i'm becoming one. 3:47 p.m. - 2013-01-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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