warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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so i had one of those indie movie type breakdowns where i ran recklessly around downtown and laid down on public stairs and kicked the leaves around..i did the unthinkable and unblocked his girlfriend from my Facebook, and there it was...all the photos of them cooking together, kissing, dancing, statusing their love for one another

i felt literally sick to my throat. and so i ran, i ran fast enough to find a little bit of love for myself. i threw rocks in the water and pretended each one was a physical manifestation of each lie, each betrayal.
i didn't feel much better, but at least i wasn't at home.

he called me, i called him. he said he wanted me in his life again for the next months, years..forever.
i hate him so much, that he could actually think we could be friends despite all of this. that just because he no longer has romantic feelings towards me, we can just be friends. like that.

i'm so terribly angry.

so Helling and i went out and got drunk and made it to the bar too late to pick a song for karaoke, but the last song that was playing was "crying" by aerosmith...and it was exactly the song i would have chosen

and it was all kind of amazing. and then i remembered how amazing i was before james sent me that random text, how fulfilled i was and how none of that had anything to do with a guy.

so yeah.

the fuck.

i'm good.

I learned the cups song "when I'm gone."
i'll post it if i have the chance

11:48 a.m. - 2012-11-15

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