warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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each day that little tight spot in my stomach, in my chest, in my throat ...it loosens, weakens, fails to hold me as tightly as it did
each time he leaves the recovery period shortens
the touch doesn't send warm shivers down my spine

i'll always remember our last moment alone . we sat in his car, fucking tears on my face, again.

him telling me i was perfect, unsure of why and how he was going to let me go. it was my chance, to have him back. tell him he was doing the wrong thing. tell him i don't care how young , how unexperienced i am..you can still be my first love without feeling so guilty. but i didn't.
i told him he was right
we're not right together

it only feels wrong because it hurts so much
but that tight, shitty feeling in my body...it gets smaller and smaller each day. and that gives me hope.

1:57 a.m. - 2011-11-24

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