warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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so much to say about how my life has turned out these past couple of weeks. my job is challenging, exhilarating, sometimes i think i say the right thing, sometimes i think i am not. but how can I? with a career that absolutely depends on communication...
but when i have a moment with a patient who truly believes i've illegally drugged her crackers and i take a deep breath and i let her know that "hey, you must be really afraid, going through this your entire life..but i promise i'm here to help you. you're in a safe place" and she smiles back because for a moment, even one second of her life she can believe that this might possibly be a reality ..man it makes all the crap worth it.

james and i have been seeing each other in this way for the last 6 months. terrifying. how i still let other men kiss and fall in love with me. and yet james is the only one.
he isn't perfect, not even close, i've discovered.
but he's the only one i want to be with right now.
my heart aches when i find old letters from his previous lover...how i want so bad to believe he's never been with anyone more beautiful than me.
he's always been so good with words.

i hope one day i can tell him what i feel.

2:47 p.m. - 2011-10-18

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