warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i don't really know where to begin. my poor aunt died on sunday, her birthday. thankfully i went to her birthday lunch on saturday, had the honour of pushing her wheel chair to her place on the table. i never thought for a moment that that would have to be my last time with her. i don't why i had to pretty much sleep the entire time, if i had known i would have spent every hour with her, learning how to play mahjong, laughing at her rude jokes. my poor cousin, shes only 20 years old, nobody expects to lose their mother..its been so hard lately. i miss my mom so much. i think they're back end of august, shoot.

remember how me and my girls swam naked in that lake? turns out it has e-coli..there's a sign there that read the lake wasn't safe to swim in . LOL. just something to add on to the epic ness of it all

bawled my eyes out over james again. i was grieving and i wanted him over to comfort me but he was busy packing with his friends to take the time to hold me in that dark time....ugh.
i miss him so much

i ruined everything by telling young james i couldn't see us together. everyone was so proud of me . then i had a couple beers and slept over and let him kiss me and touch me.

for fuck's sake.

work is hard, i feel like i'm screwing up all the time. but i'm getting there i think.

anyway.
that's about all that's happened this week.

4:48 p.m. - 2011-08-06

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