warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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overhearing them talk and giggle about how amazing the oral sex was in the previous night was pretty shitty. even more shitty was seeing him and her so close, so perfect with each other, then seeing vicki's concerned face at me and watching them move apart.

out of pity for me. out of absolute shame for me.

am i really this sad? have i really become that girl david has to be so cautious around. i just feel awful, i don't want them to feel sorry for me but i don't know if i ever want to see the two of them together either. every time aly makes a witty remark and i see david's face light up in laughter i just want to kill something inside of me so i don't have to feel this fuckin jealousy all the time. i just want to forget.
it just hurts a whole lot and i don't know what to feel anymore. anil likes being single it seems and i just feel like a big idiot for wondering and hoping for him.

i just...need a good book right now.

12:12 p.m. - 2010-12-29

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