warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i don't know what to say. boy i don't want this diary to become a big predictable mess of some young girl struggling through life and dealing with problems with massive loads of sex and indifference. nah.

i want to be more positive, more happy, more myself. i want to stop hoping more people will read this and i want to start really being who i am here.

so here
i
am

mmm. right. so angelo is attempting to hang out with me again. this is the guy i remember as the first guy i truly realized was into me. i was in the 11th grade and he supposedly discovered me from the the church choir i used to sing at. unfortunately, yes, unfortunately, his hair dresser knew the choir's director and he proceeded to contact me through her and then through my friend grace, and after some time i got an email from him asking to hang out.
one lunch time during school he took me and my friend out to wendy's and i remember feeling completely rebellious because i was in a car with a man i didn't know and who drove really fast. i remember reveling in the new sensation of feeling, well, fucking badass..and wanting all the boys to see me with this guy who graduated like 2 years ago. ...fuck was i naive then. anyway, after that he kept trying to take me out but i didn't have the heart to continue going out with a guy who didn't have much of my heart.
anyway, the point is. every couple months or so he'll try to take me somewhere and i know i should just ignore him but he's probably the most persistent guy i know. i would ignore him for weeks and i would get a text or call from him every day until i answered.

actually, its kind of frightening.
borderline insane.
oh boy.

i do know how he feels though. if i wasn't so self-restricted and self-aware i would be texting Lindsay or David every day until they told me to fuck off. fortunately, i have too much of an ego. ha. anywhoo.

merry christmas y'all!

1:11 a.m. - 2010-12-25

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