warpednormal's Diaryland Diary
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what are these feelings for anyway. what is the evolutionary biological explanation for having crazy ideas in your head and flutters in your heart because some girl or boy is sweeping you off your feet and you wonder for a second that maybe just maybe..something magical might happen for once in your life.
fuck what the fuck.
i don't like this, this excitement, its ridiculous.
i don't think she's the one or anything like that but i do believe someone out there is..but look, she's exciting me right now and that, that's enough for now. i can't believe it, i know this is going to break me in the end. i know that all this will slowly die down and i'll have to recover and cry and feel the extreme opposite of what i am going through right now
and i'm fuckin terrifed of that. yeah, yeah, this is what is supposed to make life worth living. the pain and shit. but shit. as much as this excitement and happiness takes over me, i know that the sadness and the pain will hit me just about 10x worse.
i know it.
what am i saying? i forget.
i saw tron tonight. it had really cool effects.
ah, anyway. i love you, baby. i hope you know that it means a lot to me that i am your soulmate.
10:27 p.m. - 2010-12-19
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