warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i hope this is my last entry about you, but we all know that's not possible

i didn't mean to act too bitter or too slutty or too drunk, but seeing you with your new girlfriend who also plays guitar and sings and writes music made me want to do all those things and more.

i didn't mean to give you a cold response to your innocent question but dancing with a man i didn't know while you danced with the girl you're falling in love with, kissing and caressing her, i didn't know what else to do.

i'm sorry. i hope you know i'm happy for you because you're a great guy. everyone says so. and i'm sorry i didn't get to find that out for myself. but you deserve a girl that will make you happy and will give you what you need at this point and will sing you songs to sleep and make love to you without the anger and the worry and the drama that i would have added if we were something.


i sat in greg's garage watching them draw pictures of animals having sex with people and i wanted so bad to belong. i wish i was helling, pretty and outgoing and everything a girl should be.

because she always looks so happy. i hope you know, helling, i can see right through you. there's a lot going on, a lot of guardedness...i've never seen you sad, can you believe that? i just want to open you up and figure you out but you're always either smiling and flirting or giving advice. but i want to see you break. i want to see you cry.


i want to make sure you're human

12:27 p.m. - 2010-08-22

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