warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i just don't know what to do with myself.

i like him, enough. i guess. why then, did i have to think about stephen the entire time we were doing stuff we probably shouldn't have.
stephen would have done this.
stephen wouldn't have done that.

and shit, its all so stupid and painful. because none of it, and none of this was or is real. these are all just flings. and i'm so afraid (and so certain) that julian too, will be a fling.

although i am also quite certain that he likes me just a little bit more.

and i don't know what to do.

i'm so lost.

julian asked me what was wrong every couple hours and i would say nothing, i'm fine. but he knows the truth. he knows i'm a mess.
he told his brother about me, and the first thing his brother said to him, apparently, was...she better not be a saggitarius man! those girls are crazy.

haha. i laughed because i'm also into that kind of shit.

and i also happen to be a saggitarius.

4:10 p.m. - 2010-07-22

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