warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i got a new blackberry today. i am such a spoiled rich bitch. i don't really know what to say about that, other than that.

i finished my book on the hook up culture, and i've come to realize that all those tears i shed for boys, like stephen and david especially, was okay. because it meant i still had feelings. because it meant i still wanted to have something more than just sex. i wanted real intimacy and real connection, moreso than i could have ever possibly imagined for myself.
and i learned that a lot of that takes time.

i went to a narcotics anonymous family support group meeting today. everyone talked about letting go and accepting things the way they are. it was wonderful, tragic, heartbreaking, and beautiful. a lot of things they said i couldn't agree with. but i knew that they came from a place of more experience and pain than i have ever dealt with. so i accept it for that.

had a tour around the province's psychiatric hospital. it was really intriguing because it looked like everything you would imagine a psychiatric ward to be. very institutionalized and old-fashioned. but the staff was amazing. an older man with an english accent told us, "i got my RN, and then i went straight to psychiatry. i never went back since. its the best thing there is in the bizz" i loved it. it was incredibly inspiring and i realized today that i would not be happy doing anything else.


anyway. not much else. the online dating thing is going okay. i haven't met anyone in real life yet. but there's this boy who looks shockingly similar to the dashboard confessional dude. real cute, but kinda boring online. i don't really care. all i know is...if we ever do go out....

its gonna be different.

9:17 p.m. - 2010-07-13

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