warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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i feel so bad.
Vicki's complaining about kajra always stealing her booze and how annoying she is when she's high. and i absolutely hate it because kajra is truly the only person in my life that listens and doesn't judge and truly understands me for me.
and fuck.
v considers me to be her best effin friend. but i don't even know about that. we barely see each other, i barely even talk to her about my feelings and my thoughts because i'm so scared of rejection. from her specifically, to my thoughts and to my actions. she tends to like giving me advice as her way of caring, because she believes shes "been through it" too. you know, the sleeping around, the looking for love in all the wrong places. and yeah, i guess hearing the tough love is good for me. but most of the time it isn't. most of the time i just want someone to hear me through my bullshit.

that's all.
that usually all i need.
a fucking good listener.

i joined pof again because all my cool friends are doing it. i absolutely hate it. everytime i look at another profile i just want to choke in my own puke. its not fun.

12:29 a.m. - 2010-07-10

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