warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - tossing and turning just because of some boy that came by. god damn you david, you just had to bring chicken wings didn't you. sigh. kevin texted. i was supposed to wait a whole day before i texted back (you know..that's how you play, apparently) but i couldn't help it when i saw D, so i drunkingly told him what was up. also went to the island to watch the girl's rugby game. we lost. also, i had to wake up at quarter to 5 to watch my best friends stand on the side lines. i think i may have seen darren, but i couldn't exactly recognized him, but i think he might have recognized me...it looked as if he was going to say something when i came by. but, maybe not. then we went to jeremy's and watched the hockey game with his friends, who by the way, make me feel hugely inadequate. actually, i was already feeling so because of the girls in the rugby team. all so athletic and beautiful and rough and unexplainably amazing. one girl, sarah, i think her name was, was just absolutely stunning. i felt like such a pervert just watching her tackle and run and just...own that field. i even had to bear the torture of staying in the change room while all of them undressed and slyly put on their sports bras and spandex. i just...fuck. anyway, we lost the hockey game too. and i felt almost back at square one yesterday with regards to my feelings for david. when he came in and i frantically waved my hand like some 12 year old girl seeing justin bieber for the first time...and then just spending the entire night trying to find something funny and witty to say so he knew i was better..i was doing well without him. but no. fuck no. i just wanted to punch myself in the face. or him in the face. or anything in the face. 8:41 a.m. - 2010-04-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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