warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - you know, i've never dated a real witty guy before. or a guy that can walk into a room and just command the attention of every single stupid girl .. i don't know. i'm wondering if it's because i'm just really boring and uninteresting to these guys. maybe, it's because i truly suck at the art of conversation. i admit it. okay. is that why most guys that i really like only want me for a night or two? am i really that disposable? does that give me a right to treat guys that DO like me in the same way. god. no. i'm happy where i am. i'm happy that i don't need a man to make me feel worth something. because i know that i am human and i am alive and that i have a chance to make this life as beautiful as possible.i think i'd like to fall in love with myself. grow up a little bit... mature, drive, cook, and study, and sweat, and dream, and bike, and read, and cure and heal. i've been too distracted, too caught up with the idea of finding love so quickly and easily that i lost sight of the real joy in finding love in the first place. that it takes time. and it's going to take some time to fall in love with myself too. all I need is some good beer, some good friends, and some goddamn hope. 1:02 a.m. - 2009-08-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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