warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am addicted to making you love me. I go too fast. I'm like a man, sex first, i'll get to know you later. maybe. perhaps its an insecurity thing, i don't know. i'm just beyond confused and i need some time alone. i said that already. but i need it. i am going to message jordan and daniel. i am going to tell them the truth. that i am young, and i am not ready, and that we went too fast, and that i want to find myself, and that i want to spend more time with my girlfriends, and my brothers, and my parents, and i want to volunteer, and spend time with kids, and i want a job, and i really, really, don't need a boyfriend. the cuddling, the sex, the dried eyes after sleeping with contacts...is new and wild and amazing for me. but i miss the old me...at least i can go back to a more edited old me, but still. i also need to get tested for stds again. i don't know. i've been really uncareful. and i'm worried as fuck that that is going to bite me in the ass hard. god. why do they have to like me so much. every hour we're together daniel tells me how beautiful i am, how cute i am, how my eyes light up the night. jordan...haha, oh jordan...its complicated. so complicated.
� I had a dream that you were with me, and it wasn't my fault. also, someone please punch that screaming twilight edward fanatic thing in the face. yeah. k thanks. YouTube - My Never- Blue October (Breaking Dawn) 11:29 p.m. - 2009-05-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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