warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I think I may have overreacted last night. I mean, if i could change the one thing, i wouldn't have had sex. of course. i feel like the only reason why i've never enjoyed sex is because i've never been able to do it with someone i felt both emotionally, mentally, and maybe even spiritually connected to. i don't know. Jordan is an alright guy. Kind of a loser. He lives at the store he works, and its a store for cowboys. he only gets paid 10 bucks an hour. but he's 18....turning 19 in May. I feel kind of lame going out with someone a few months younger than me. but we'll be the same age for 7 months. haha. he's a bit white trashy-y, and i would do anything to make him get a haircut. but he does look nice in a hat, and he does this thing with his fingers, where he strokes my arm and gives me goosebumps. i don't know. he texted me this morning, saying that he felt a connection with me, that it was different with me, that he could be a goof around me etc. i don't know. but, in order to make that night mean something i guess, i should give it another shot. no more one night stands. I've been on plentyoffish for a bit. i just started up an account. its kinda lame. like, well, superlame. but i've only been looking for girls to hang out with and possibly.....you know? i just need a softer touch in my life. Its getting rough. it really is. 2:23 p.m. - 2009-04-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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