warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I feel disgusted with myself. dirty, used, forgotten. I don't know why I let these things happen to me. Am I really that starving for attention? Am I really that willing to give up myself to something...so wrong, so ...unlike me, just because I think he'll like me. I hate myself. I hate how guys only want me for sex...and i'm starting to think that it is MY doing that all they want from me is sex. because i let them have me. i let them do me. i can't...i'm just....so alone.
In my heart of hearts I know that I deserve SO much better. so much more than what i've been giving myself. i feel so sick. and i hate him so much...and i'm afraid that i'm just translating the hate i have for myself towards someone. but i can't help it. i can't help but feel hate. i hate him i hate this i hate everything. i just hate how this keeps happening. The worst part of it all is knowing that I have the power to change this, yet i continue to let it happen
12:17 a.m. - 2009-04-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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