warpednormal's Diaryland Diary

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oh right, 2014.
these last few days have been riddled with anxiety, the kind of thoughts that you go over and over in your head in the hopes that by doing so you would somehow change the external situation or even how you feel. as if by thinking and worrying about it ONE MORE TIME, it will be better.
its insanity.
to choose to worry and pine over something that you can't change. or something that you can change, but are too busy worrying to make that particular change.
and yet, shit. we all do it. every day we have the same predictable thoughts and worries and it causes nothing but suffering. how are we to go beyond that? when will we stop using relationships as a means to an end. When will we start really being present with people, listening and enjoying them in every moment you have with them instead of using people to make YOU feel less lonely, less incompetent, less incomplete. its insane.
we are all complete.

anywhoozits. i hope you had a fantastic new year. rang in the new year with a couple of psychotics and a nice young care aid at work. what can you do

starting this day, this life as fresh and vibrant as possible. to live in the moment. to breathe every moment. to be.

1:11 p.m. - 2014-01-02

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