warpednormal's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - i don't really know where to begin. my poor aunt died on sunday, her birthday. thankfully i went to her birthday lunch on saturday, had the honour of pushing her wheel chair to her place on the table. i never thought for a moment that that would have to be my last time with her. i don't why i had to pretty much sleep the entire time, if i had known i would have spent every hour with her, learning how to play mahjong, laughing at her rude jokes. my poor cousin, shes only 20 years old, nobody expects to lose their mother..its been so hard lately. i miss my mom so much. i think they're back end of august, shoot.
i ruined everything by telling young james i couldn't see us together. everyone was so proud of me . then i had a couple beers and slept over and let him kiss me and touch me. for fuck's sake. work is hard, i feel like i'm screwing up all the time. but i'm getting there i think. anyway. 4:48 p.m. - 2011-08-06 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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